Girl Hazard is losing it this week.
Technically… everything is fine. Literally, I feel insane.
I’m feeling anxious, insecure, confused, upset… not fun.
I’ve been walking almost every day, four miles on the boardwalk if it’s nice out, at least forty-five minutes at the gym if it’s raining. I’ve been listening to this great audiobook, a great podcast, eating better, trying to get to bed at a reasonable time… doing all the things that are supposed to make someone feel good, and yet, I still feel insane.
I’m just like… am I even acting like myself? Most likely, yes, but it doesn’t feel like it at all.
Maybe I thought I was the kind of person who didn’t get insecure because I felt so sure of who I was and what I stood for. But in all honesty, I feel so disconnected from that version of myself right now.
And on top of all the confusion and emotional turmoil, my sister calls me today and says, “You should post more funny stuff. No one gets to see how funny you are.” And that just added to my confusion.
Like what if I just want to be funny? Can’t I just be funny without having to make people laugh? I don’t know.
I do feel a little bit better after writing this though. Lol.
Let’s talk soon. Maybe sooner than later, when I feel more sane.
With Danger & Grace,
Girl Hazard
